great shock

In between my life history I am now in great shock to find my dear wife is unwell for the past one week and I do not know how to express my feelings.For the past 41 years she had been a tower of strength to me and now to see her inactive for the past ten days really shaken me.She was always my very good companion in life and to see her loosing her health and keeping herself always in the bed without doing her usual routine of taking care of my health and feeding me with utmost care.I do not know how to express my feelings since she is admitted in the hospital with her health problems.She is the person who goes for help to everybody in our family and always worried about her children’s welfare.Such a person was unable to talk properly when her loving children wanted to know about her health.She was keeping the phone in her ears,but could not answer them properly.The children whom she loved so much was very much shocked to see this kind of action from her.I am really upset and feel my inability to give back whatever she had done for me over the years.Since my children are far away and cannot leave their family to come and help her at this hour of crisis.When I was having health problems in my life she stood strong and was ready to face any situations,but on the contrary I feel that I am not up to her standards.Yet as a husband what all I can do for her,I have done with utmost sincerity.I Have been very affectionate with her during her sickeness and I tried my level best to see her happy.I  pray to god that she will come home from the hospital and once again start her regular routine which I am sure she will.Today  leaving her in the hospital and after coming back home I feel the  absence of her which I am unable to bear.I wish she will have a speedy recovery and come back home with more strength and continue her usual routine.

Exams&Sports

University exams were expected  by the first week of March in my second year B.Sc in which I had to write only my subsidary subject (Statistics) and my language paper in Tamil.Statistics was a very tough one,but I had no difficulty in encountering the paper.When all  my friends were finding the paper tough,but I had  no difficulty in doing the exams.Next one was the language (Tamil) and I did it with extreme pleasure.At the end of the exams all my friends from the college had a get together in a nearby hotel spending our time happily.We went to a picture “Kadhalikka Neramillai”enjoying the whole show.After the exams we had  holidays for two months and only in the month of june the college will reopen for the next academnic year.I was happy that atleast in my holidays I can go for the cricket matches conducted by the Tamilnadu cricket Association.I was wrong in my thinking.I had a good cricket bat autographed by one Tamilnadu state player “Chakravarthy”.It was a good bat and the cost of the bat in those days was Rs75/-.It was gifted to me by one of my friends  and whenever I go for matches I used to take the bat for my personal use though the team will supply me bat for the match.But the bat Iwas owning was a lucky one and used to score a lot of runs with the bat.During my initial stages I was a good batsman and later I was transformed in to a opening bowler by my captain.We had a match  during the week end and when I wanted to go for the match but to my surprise I could not find the bat.I was in a hurry to go for the match and I decided that I will use the team bat.I went to the match and did not fare well with the bat I got from the team.I was a dissappointed man.It came to my knowledge after six months that the man responsible for the dissapperance of the bat was none other than my dear dad.He was hating sports to such an extent that he did not want me to go for the match.He was always making me to study and not allowing me to any of my other activities.When on one day I went to the top of the terrace of my house I found my bat broken to pieces and on seeing that I was in tears.What sort of encouragement I had in those days still lingering in my mind.